Should I or shouldn’t I? The purse was right there. It was on sale. It was beautiful, but I didn’t have the extra funds that day. My mind started reeling. I could put it on the credit card? Pay it off later. A recent celebrity was rocking that same style handbag not long ago.
Suddenly, I didn’t want that bag- I needed that bag.
But then, He came to my mind. Was the godly thing buying that purse? Would buying that fashion accessory glorify Him in spending money I did not have? A Proverbs 31 woman uses her money wisely.
But, I could use the purse for a long time. It would be an investment. It matched my new shoes. I could be a Proverbs 31 woman with an awesome purse. It seemed I could convince myself of anything, even if it went against God.
I wish I could say I did the right thing and walked away, but I bought the purse at a time when I should not have.
1 Kings 18:21, “ Elijah went before the people and said, ‘How long will you waver between two opinions? If the Lord is God, follow him; but if Baal is God, follow him.’ But the people said nothing.”
The Hebrew word for waver in this verse is the same as that used for danced.
The people of Israel were dancing between two options. Which should they choose, God or Baal? Elijah knew the right answer, and he later proves to the people of Israel what their choice should be. Do you ever find yourself in this situation, where you have a choice between the true God and something else you’re turning into a god? God has already proven to us He is the right choice time and time again. Yet, still, we dance.
God or money?
God or power?
God or gossip?
God or the television?
God or revenge?
God or a celebrity?
God or an addiction?
God or __________?
God or a purse?
Thankfully, with His grace and wisdom from His word, I now find myself making the right choice (God) more often than the wrong one. I’ve stopped dancing around the decision and instead follow Him. It’s taken practice and repentance and maybe even a few reminders from my husband. I have come to realize that nothing can fully give me satisfaction like that from God.
If you are like me, and sometimes find yourself struggling with dancing between two gods, let’s pray to the One who should be our only God with the words of Elijah in 1 Kings 18:37; ask that the Lord answer your prayer so that you may better know Him and that your heart is turned back again!